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0:07>> Well, welcome to AEU fall 2026 when life
0:11feels unlivable theology despair and
0:14pastoral response lecture number one.
0:16Let's start with prayer. Lord, thank
0:18you.
0:19We praise you, give you glory and just
0:21ask for your favor, Lord, beyond
0:23measure.
0:24As we deal with this heavy issue death,
0:27suicide, and life.
0:30But only you, Holy Spirit God, could
0:32invade our hearts and mind
0:34to speak to us, Lord. Speak to us, Lord,
0:36in Jesus' name.
0:38Amen. Well,
0:40Aksu
0:43You are probably used to do that by now.
0:48Bit of testimony today.
0:49Actually, a wonderful testimony.
0:54I was at Søren Kierkegaard
0:57scholarly [snorts]
0:58meeting and I shared about that and how
1:01fantastic six was formed and
1:03I was requested by Oxford Press see if
1:09I'm interested in submitting a paper.
1:11Wow, and I finally got an email
1:14uh
1:15from Dr. Thomas.
1:18He's basically saying that uh
1:21he apologized but he couldn't respond to
1:23me
1:24early enough but then, hey,
1:26would you still be interested in special
1:28issue of Journal of Philosophy of
1:31Education?
1:32Of course,
1:34it's for us scholars
1:36to being able to publish that Oxford
1:39Press will be like
1:41a local soccer player I say, "Hey, so
1:43just say, would you like to go play at a
1:46Premier League?" Of course. Yeah.
1:49Right?
1:50Uh so, I wrote the following abstract.
1:54It is It's very long process. So, what
1:57they want is they want 250 word
2:00abstract.
2:03And that abstract will be thrown into
2:05the pool of all the scholars and would
2:08take my name out, take my nationality
2:10out, take my gender out. You'll be just
2:13based on that. Uh
2:15and people will read without
2:19any bias.
2:20And they'll select.
2:22And if you are selected, then they're
2:23going to ask you to
2:26uh do more work and maybe outline. And
2:29then you'll be also read without your
2:31name on it so that you'll be very fair
2:34process. And once it's done, then you'll
2:36be published.
2:38And then you submit the article. I don't
2:40know how many how long the article,
2:41maybe 10 15 pages. Not not long. It's
2:44not a book. It's a article, journal.
2:46It's part of the journal.
2:48Then it becomes um
2:50publication by September
2:532027.
2:55>> [laughter]
2:56>> Isn't it wild?
2:58Uh but
2:59cuz I'm so used to just doing things bam
3:01bam bam bam quickly. It's okay.
3:05So, this is my 250 words abstract.
3:10The funny thing is the stuff that I'm
3:12working on with you on the whole safe
3:15uh subjective appropriation framing
3:17existence. That's what I'm going to
3:19write on. Isn't it great?
3:23So, if my article gets published
3:26September
3:282027
3:30then you could proudly say that yeah, I
3:32was taught by a professor the topic that
3:35we were learning at the time in August
3:38September 2026, now is
3:42Oxford worthy.
3:45Oxford
3:47Reframing Kierkegaard for philosophy of
3:50education in Asian context. It is a
3:53abstract.
3:54This paper proposes SAFE as
3:59pedagogical framework
4:01derived from Søren Kierkegaard's
4:03existential philosophy applies to
4:05contemporary educational challenges in
4:08Korea and wider Asia.
4:10While Kierkegaard is widely recognized
4:12for emphasizing subjective
4:14appropriation, the inward process by
4:16which truth becomes personally lived.
4:19This paper argues that education must
4:23also attend to the interpretive
4:25frameworks through which learners
4:27understand themselves and their world.
4:29Education, therefore, not merely
4:32acquisition of objective knowledge, but
4:34the
4:35the formation of self through
4:37existential framing.
4:39SAFE argues that objective reality often
4:42remains unchanged, while subjective
4:45appropriation transforms the meaning of
4:47that reality.
4:49Everyday examples such as contextual
4:51priming, change in naming, changes in
4:54naming, and influence of social media
4:57demonstrates how different interpretive
5:00frames can profoundly alter one's
5:02perception of identity,
5:04hope, and purpose. Read through
5:06Kierkegaard, this example illustrates
5:08that despair is not simply a consequence
5:11of external circumstance, but how
5:13existence is inwardly appropriated.
5:19The paper develops three educational
5:21claims. First, authentic education forms
5:24person rather than merely informing
5:26minds about cultivating inward
5:29instead of external conformity. Second,
5:32SAFE provides a philosophical framework
5:35for
5:36understanding contemporary educational
5:38crisis, including anxiety,
5:40perfectionism, comparison culture, youth
5:42suicide
5:43as failure of existential framing rather
5:45than merely psychological disorders.
5:49Third, Kierkegaard's work of love offers
5:51the Christian reframing of existence in
5:54which faith, hope, love becomes the
5:56interpretive lens through which students
5:58understand themselves before God and
6:01others. Rather than presenting
6:03Kierkegaard as a historical European
6:05thinker, Save demonstrates his continued
6:08reverence rele- relevance for
6:10contemporary philosophy of education by
6:13showing that education is fundamentally
6:16the art of helping persons appropriate
6:19truth in ways that transform existence.
6:21Through
6:22this exis- existential framing,
6:24Kierkegaard offers educators a
6:26compelling vision of
6:27human formation
6:29grounded not simply in knowledge, but in
6:32becoming.
6:34Wow.
6:35250 words.
6:37You notice that
6:39I read aloud.
6:42Uh when you read a book,
6:46whether when life becomes unlivable
6:50to those who want to end it all,
6:59Christ to die daily,
7:03um
7:04reading aloud helps you.
7:11Helps you to comprehend much better.
7:14It's just scientifically proven. So,
7:17when you read Bible specially,
7:22read aloud.
7:24Right? For faith comes by hearing the
7:27words.
7:29When you just read with your eyes, you
7:30cannot hear.
7:32So, the part of that testimony of this
7:35is that so I was
7:38fasting 40 days many decades ago. So,
7:41maybe I don't know, 20 years ago, 25
7:44years ago, I was fasting 40 days and
7:46there was certain period in my life that
7:48God would ask me to fast 40 days
7:51consecutively.
7:52So, within the short period, maybe
7:566 7 years,
7:58I fasted 40 days uh four times.
8:02It's one of those occasion I was up in
8:04the prayer mountain and the winter of
8:06the winter.
8:09I went up to the mountain and start
8:11fasting 40 days. It was
8:13Of course, it's water fast and then
8:16toward the end, I would mix half
8:19watermelon juice and half water. Dilute
8:23and uh so, it was kind of a juice fast
8:25also at the end.
8:27I was up in the prayer mountain. This is
8:29actual place that I have to hike up to
8:32that hill and there's the little cross
8:34and there's little place you could
8:37pray and
8:38So, normally, let's say it'll take about
8:4115 20 minutes
8:43to hike that uh hills.
8:4615 minutes may maybe.
8:48But, after 40 days, you could make it in
8:51like 6 minutes cuz you lost 45 lbs.
8:54I lo- I lost 45 lbs fasting 40 days and
8:58so, I would just fly that mountain up.
9:01Uh and then,
9:03the Lord start speaking to me.
9:05The Lord The Lord said, "Write, I shall
9:07provide." And I said,
9:10"Write what, Lord?"
9:16I haven't written a single book yet. So,
9:18when Lord said, "Write, I shall
9:20provide." It did not make any sense. You
9:21write what? Write essay? Write poetry?
9:24Write music? Cuz I did all three of
9:27them. I was writing essays and writing
9:29poetry and writing music. So, write
9:31what?
9:32And there's a silence.
9:34Did you know that God speaks through
9:36silence?
9:39So, I said, "Okay." Well, I came down
9:40and start writing books.
9:43First
9:44books, so
9:46uh
9:47I did start writing books, and I wrote
9:50books, but then the the next 40-day
9:53fast.
9:55So, I was fasting another 40-day
9:57fasting, and then I brought uh almost 30
10:00books by Dr. Yonggi Cho.
10:03Uh
10:0330 books by on prayer by Dr. Yonggi Cho.
10:07And
10:09I was writing I reading
10:11and then writing a book on The
10:13Prayer-Driven Life. This was in response
10:16to The Purpose-Driven Life. I don't
10:18believe people suffer because they don't
10:20have purpose. I I believe people suffer
10:22because they don't have prayer.
10:24So, uh
10:25Rick Warren wrote uh Prayer-Driven uh
10:27Purpose-Driven Life, and I said, "No,
10:29no, no. You got it wrong, Rick. It has
10:31to be Prayer-Driven Life."
10:34>> [laughter]
10:35>> And when I was done uh writing, uh Lord
10:38said, "Post it on the internet for
10:39free."
10:42I said, "Lord, I I got to make money.
10:44You said you provide. Are you going to
10:46You know, if I set it on the internet
10:47for free,
10:49what kind of provision is that?"
10:51That's just typical American. Remember,
10:53I'm banana.
10:54I'm yellow outside, but white inside.
10:56I'm American. I need to be paid. You
10:58know, it's a capitalistic thing, you
11:00know. I work, I need to be paid.
11:04>> [snorts]
11:04>> And so,
11:05when I first wrote that book, I gave it
11:08to
11:09a a relative of mine.
11:12Family member.
11:14I won't say who.
11:17Um
11:18why don't you read through? And he
11:21these are the verbatim, which means
11:23quotation, which this is exactly what he
11:25said.
11:26After reading through my first book and
11:29not really doing a editing job. He did
11:31not even edit. He gave it back to me and
11:33said, "Don't write any more book. You
11:35are not a good writer."
11:38My gosh.
11:40What a terrible thing to say to a guy
11:42who just wrote his first book.
11:46And wants to publish. Don't write any
11:48more book, man. You're a terrible
11:50writer. You're a horrible writer. You're
11:52not a good writer. It's I mean
11:55Why would you say that, right? And so,
11:57that was so mean.
11:59I'm like
12:01you know, and I had to respond to him.
12:03I I I I I write not because I'm a good
12:05writer.
12:06I write because God told me to write.
12:08Right? It's called calling.
12:11Maybe some of you really bad at what you
12:13do, like pastoring. You're not very good
12:16pastor. But you have to pastor. Why?
12:18Because God told you to.
12:20Right? And maybe you are doing something
12:22that you're not particularly good at.
12:25But you're doing it cuz out of
12:27obedience. That's what I did. Yeah, I'm
12:29not good. I'm just compulsive writer. I
12:31write write write write. But I'm not
12:33going to be Nobel Prize winning, you
12:35know, literature or poetry. I
12:37I write poem. I write books. I I I wrote
12:40books, you know.
12:43But would would you say that I'm going
12:44to win a literature award? No.
12:46I'm just out of obedience.
12:51But since then, 2006, 20 years ago,
12:55my book has been because it's internet
12:58free, no copyright.
13:00People's been downloading, translating,
13:03and publishing.
13:05Now it's in 13 languages.
13:09This one, that cover is actually we I
13:11published in America 2012.
13:14Almost 6 years later, uh
13:17the guy who said that, "Oh, it's you're
13:19a lousy writer. Don't write any more."
13:22Well, 6 years later it's published
13:23through American publisher.
13:25Wipf and Stock. that's very reputable.
13:29And now
13:3313 languages. You know that guy who
13:35said, "Don't write any more book. You
13:36are not a good writer." Well, my editor
13:39was actually visiting me this week
13:42after, I don't know, 10 years
13:44uh many years of not seeing.
13:47And that's the day that I received my
13:49Thomas email
13:51saying that, "Hey, would you consider
13:52writing for Oxford Press?"
13:55Wow.
13:56Talk about God redeeming your past hurt,
13:58you know, cuz he did hurt me. Uh
14:02And he almost discouraged me to stop
14:04writing. You know, if I listened to him
14:0620 years ago, "Oh, yeah, I'm not a good
14:09writer. I'm not going to write anymore."
14:11Then I will not have published 250
14:12books.
14:15By listening to him and and I don't know
14:17why he said that. He's not He's He's a
14:19nice guy. It's just that maybe at that
14:21time
14:22he was upset or he was maybe competing
14:24with me. I I don't know the deal.
14:26And I forgave him for that. But
14:29while he was visiting me, my house, stay
14:31here overnight.
14:34Um
14:35and then this email came. So, over the
14:37breakfast table, I said, "Hey, J-
14:39Honey, you know, I'm talking to my wife.
14:41Oxford Press wants me to propose a a a
14:44paper." I go, "Wow, that's great, you
14:46know, Bob." And he completely forgot
14:50that he s- he said that 20 years ago.
14:52Now, I almost ruined my life
14:56by listening to him and got hurt by him
14:58and not stop writing.
15:00What about you? Some of you
15:03God called you to do something.
15:08And because some idiot said, "Don't Oh,
15:12you're not very good at it." or
15:13something negative and "Oh, okay."
15:16Think about that.
15:18So,
15:19before, you know, so instead of writing
15:22a paper,
15:24now I'm writing an entire book.
15:26>> [laughter]
15:27>> So, the stuff that were I'm teaching
15:29right now with you, it will become a
15:31book, uh Subjective Appropriation
15:33Framing Existence, SAFE.
15:35Reframing Kierkegaard's
15:39for [snorts] philosophy of education in
15:42Asian context.
15:45SAFE, that's the logo that I'm
15:47I made and I'll be working on that.
15:50So, what is Subjective Appropriation
15:52Framing Existence? I mean, I say it
15:55very clearly here in a very, very short
15:58sentence. Let me just go there again.
16:02So,
16:04Subjective when inward process by which
16:06truth becomes personally lived,
16:09that's what I'm talking about.
16:11The inward processing of becoming who
16:13you are that live through
16:15life.
16:17So, this this book is going to talk all
16:19about that.
16:20But, this will be long long definition,
16:23longer definition of SAFE.
16:26Changing the interpretive framework
16:28through which the self inwardly
16:29appropriate objective reality before
16:31God. External world may remain
16:34unchanged, but inward relationship to
16:37that reality is transformed. This is not
16:40positive thinking or psychological
16:41optimism.
16:43It is an existential reorientation
16:46in which truth becomes personally lived
16:49rather than merely intellectually known.
16:52Keep on saying,
16:54"I don't care how much you know. I want
16:56to know how much you live that truth."
16:58Yeah, I don't care how much knowledge
17:00you have about dieting.
17:02I'll like to tell me that you lost 50
17:04lbs, you know, cuz you were 20 50 lbs.
17:08You know, you could talk I mean, you
17:09could talk about dieting, you could talk
17:11about living healthy, and you are
17:14overweight by 200, you know, overweight
17:16by 100 lb and you breathe heavily and
17:19you're eating you're eating all this
17:21corn, you know, sugar, chocolate,
17:25cupcakes, and pasta, and you are fat
17:28boy. And you're going to tell me about
17:30or you know how you live a healthy, eat
17:33well.
17:35>> [laughter]
17:36>> It's like
17:37That's the oxymoron. That would be so
17:39stupid. And yet
17:42we have people like that intellectually.
17:44Oh, I know everything about loving your
17:46neighbor. I wrote a book on loving your
17:48neighbor. And I hate you. You know, it's
17:50like wow. [laughter]
17:54So, let's get to that book.
17:56We're going to finish up this book.
17:58The seventh story about Brother T.
18:02The T is struggling. He's a policeman.
18:06Um and the corruption set in in the
18:09department.
18:11And he has to either
18:13tell the truth
18:15or get out of his job.
18:18What do you do?
18:19What the safe
18:22says, the principle.
18:24So, I'm re- rewriting this story
18:28in the safe theory or safe method or
18:31safe
18:32I guess mode. Safe mode. What is a safe
18:35mode?
18:36T's story demonstrate Well, actually I'm
18:39I'm reading too much.
18:41Go ahead and read loud.
18:43I'm going to read with my eyes. You read
18:44loud, okay? And then you're you'll help
18:47your comprehension.
18:50Did you finish? You could pause it,
18:52spend more time reading.
18:54I just read with my eyes, but maybe I'm
18:56reading too too fast.
18:58You could pause it.
19:03Okay, welcome back.
19:04>> [laughter]
19:06>> So, if you don't understand, please go
19:09back
19:10and read the story number seven, chapter
19:12seven of this book.
19:14Um
19:15Some of you working
19:19even have that kind of pressure,
19:21institutional
19:23pressure.
19:24You may be working at a church and you
19:26found out that your senior pastor is
19:29having sexual affair.
19:30What do you do?
19:33You found out elders stealing money from
19:35the church.
19:36What do you do?
19:38You found out that your best friend is
19:40cheating on
19:41his wife.
19:43And institutionally that you are under
19:46him.
19:48What do you do?
19:49And these are real stories. It's not
19:51just made up. They're in all, you know,
19:54who does go through that? Everybody.
19:56You at least one point in your life will
19:58have to
19:59feel the institutional pressure that,
20:01you know, do you agree or disagree? I
20:03mean, it's like right now
20:05I have to deal with
20:07a
20:08young man who
20:09has going to have several thousand
20:12people, famous singers from Korea come
20:15to America and do coral light concert
20:17and he's paying charging money for it.
20:20And
20:21it was I was told that he was having um
20:25sex with one of the staff and the staff
20:28end up dying.
20:29Uh and and he
20:32actually gaslight her to
20:34uh give one of the house that she owned,
20:36this million-dollar home, and
20:38to him personally.
20:40It's this terrible thing.
20:42And I I've been telling people who's
20:45organizer and they say, "Oh, you know,
20:47we don't really want to deal with it."
20:48I'm like, "Dude, this is corruption,
20:51you know, um
20:56How do you self
20:58appropriate?
21:02Yeah, I like it. Let's do that again.
21:04You read aloud
21:06now and I'm going to read with my eyes.
21:10Yeah, so he
21:12um is struggling and actually
21:15um I wrote this particular story based
21:19on Jeju Island and
21:21uh that's the story of
21:28this story.
21:30Uh Han Kang won a Nobel Prize
21:33by actually human acts and this story,
21:36We Do Not Part.
21:38It's about tragedy in Korean history, a
21:41massacre of
21:42Christians killing
21:45um non-Christians claiming that they're
21:47communist.
21:48And exactly same thing is is is what
21:51what
21:52churches are doing in Korea today.
21:55Framing others as communist and killing
21:57them.
21:58Oh my gosh, so terrible.
22:04>> [clears throat]
22:07>> Okay.
22:10Start reading aloud.
22:12Amen.
22:15Amen.
22:16The safe
22:18turns
22:20what's outside internally.
22:23Uh you self-appropriate
22:26the external reality
22:28and you frame it so that it becomes
22:31something that you could live. It
22:33becomes your reality existence.
22:36Remember the whole whole question about
22:38how many times you dated
22:40I how happy are you?
22:42Then that framing would change your
22:46reality of your happiness. Oh, I only
22:50date. I didn't get a single date last
22:52month. Oh, I must be Oh, I'm so sad.
22:55Flip that. How happy are you? I'm okay.
22:58How many times did you date? None.
23:01It's it's not connected. But, by
23:03reframing it,
23:05so the whole self-subjective
23:08appropriation challenges you to look at
23:11reality differently.
23:13Okay?
23:15Same principle is this: Reality remains
23:18constant.
23:20Subjective appropriation changed.
23:22Therefore, existence itself was
23:25experienced differently.
23:28Did you get that?
23:31So, T did not survive because the world
23:33suddenly became safe.
23:35He survived because he began to inhibit
23:37the same world through new existential
23:39frame, one shaped by trust, hope, and
23:42possibility of beginning again. In
23:44Kierkegaardian term, the decisive
23:46transformation occurred not outside him,
23:49but within him, where truth became
23:51personally appropriated, and life once
23:53again became worth living.
23:57Trust. Trust is one most essential force
24:00which does sustain. Now, I'm quoting the
24:01book now.
24:02This is a quote from the book.
24:05Trust. Trust is one of the most
24:06essential forces
24:08that sustain life. Kierkegaard once
24:09said, "Trust is difficult, but it is the
24:12foundation of healing."
24:14To survive despair, we must summon the
24:17courage to believe in life, in others,
24:19and something beyond ourselves, called
24:24God.
24:26>> [laughter]
24:27>> You could QR code it, and you could see
24:28in YouTube.
24:30And please share this uh
24:32stay.
24:33I haven't launched it yet, but uh share.
24:37Go to YouTube. Look for a stay one more
24:40day channel.
24:41And you find 200 songs.
24:44Just listen to it.
24:48>> The ocean never talked.
24:50>> This is [music] written in K-hip hop.
24:52>> But, somehow it knows everything.
24:57I'm [music]
24:58right here.
25:00And the end
25:02>> [music]
25:03>> feels closer than I thought.
25:09>> [music]
25:09>> Cliffside table, cold coffee, fading
25:10heat. My hands still shaking, does that
25:12mean my heart still beats? Justice,
25:14that's the word I used to wear like
25:15armor. Now I live [music] in silence,
25:17just a shadow getting darker. What
25:18school taught me wasn't trust, it was
25:20survive. Take the hit, keep it moving,
25:21learn to stay alive. Why'd I become
25:22[music] a cop? Thought I'd protect the
25:24weak, but now I'm on the side that makes
25:25the truth too scared to speak.
25:27>> If I talk, it all falls down. [music]
25:31If I stay quiet, I break down.
25:36Nowhere left [music] for me to stand.
25:39I'm balancing on this EDGE AGAIN.
25:43SUICIDE
25:45>> [music]
25:46>> IS THE PAINFUL choice you make when
25:49trust has collapsed
25:51and you let go [music] of life's last
25:53thread. I was feeling that end.
25:56Couldn't even say a word. [music]
25:57Quietly getting ready
26:01to let myself go.
26:02>> The betrayal [music] wasn't just the
26:03system, it was me. In the mirror I could
26:05barely see what used to be. Built a
26:07prison that hid [music] everything I
26:08couldn't trust. No doors, no light, just
26:10duty turning into dust. Beat up or shut
26:12up, that's the choice they hand me.
26:14Either way I lose, that's the rule of
26:15this reality. [music]
26:16Truth is heavy, silence heavier still,
26:18and I'm standing here watching my own
26:19soul get killed.
26:22>> We do not part.
26:24Why did that line stop me cold?
26:27What if the things I thought were gone
26:29never really left at all?
26:32What if
26:33this isn't where it ends?
26:35>> Suicide
26:38is what happens in the wreckage when a
26:41broken heart believes there's nothing
26:44left to hold
26:45but one single [music] line. Reached in
26:48and grabbed my wrist and taught my lungs
26:51again
26:52how to breathe.
26:54>> Even when I can't believe in me, [music]
26:55I still believe in something higher.
26:58Even in the ruins of trust, there's
27:00still one breath, one spark, one fire.
27:02That breath is what kept me here. That
27:05shaking hand became my proof. [music]
27:07Not because I was whole again, but
27:09because I still had truth.
27:11>> [music]
27:17[music]
27:27[music]
27:32>> That day
27:34>> [music]
27:36>> I breathed.
27:39>> [music]
27:40>> And for the first time
27:42it felt like
27:47a beginning.
27:50>> [music]
27:56>> Well,
27:58I like this song.
28:01Well, let's go back to
28:03our textbook.
28:05Courage to die daily, and we start
28:07covering a bit about
28:10death culture and the arts.
28:13Um
28:14we're going to focus on culture to now.
28:18Um
28:19I I taught a class, metaphysics class at
28:22uh Royal University of Phnom Penh.
28:25Uh that's National College of C- uh
28:28Cambodia.
28:31I taught on relationship between
28:32Heidegger's nothingness and Cambodia
28:35concept of zero.
28:38So, the whole thing was on what is
28:40nothing.
28:41Oh, so uh they look so cute. This was
28:43literally 10 years ago.
28:46Um
28:48they would celebrate my birthday.
28:52And we'll we'll do cheers with Korean
28:55chicken legs.
28:58And after the class, I asked them, "So,
29:01what did you learn from me for LAST 2
29:03MONTHS?"
29:06>> [laughter]
29:07>> CUZ I TAUGHT THEM ON NOTHINGNESS and
29:11they are so excited that, "Yeah, we
29:13learned nothing from you."
29:16>> [gasps]
29:16>> It's cute, right?
29:18Now,
29:19the oldest number zero and people always
29:22think that is if they found it India,
29:24that's not true.
29:26It was in Smithsonian.
29:28Uh the oldest zero is found in Cambodia
29:32about 100 years before India.
29:35And so,
29:37it's one of my students Sarat or we call
29:39him Socrates.
29:41And we took on on
29:43February 22nd, I don't know which year
29:45this was. Um.
29:48Sarat Sakor is the one of the movie
29:51producer or the director and Sarat
29:54Socrates we had day trip to Cambodia
29:56National Museum.
29:58Right here. It's the National Museum.
30:02And in that they have a rock they found
30:05at Angkor Wat.
30:07Finding zero. And that became a basis.
30:10He's holding on to the book that he and
30:12I wrote together on metaphysics of East
30:15and West.
30:16The mathematical unit zero was first
30:18found in Cambodia and we want to make
30:20documentary about it from philosophical
30:23perspective. Sounds wild, but it will be
30:25wonderful project.
30:27So, that's it.
30:29That dot right there is a zero.
30:31605,
30:33all right.
30:34Uh the inscription written in Old Khmer
30:36reads, "The
30:39Kaka era reached year 605 on the fifth
30:43day of the waning moon. The dot at the
30:46right is now recognized as the oldest
30:48known version of zero.
30:51So, Amir Aczel is the author who
30:54actually found
30:56uh uh did
30:57research and wrote a book Finding Zero.
31:01So, me and my students wrote a book on
31:04that, Dr. Babo's Philosophy Cambodia
31:06Metaphysics with
31:08Oung Sarath and Nim Merinol. Uh
31:11Oung Sarath becomes one of the six major
31:15figures in education department in
31:17Cambodia, and Nim Merinol becomes a
31:19professor of philosophy at the same
31:22school that I taught.
31:24>> Uh revolution.
31:26Post revolution that
31:27>> Uh Sarath speaking.
31:28>> need that I I write in is about
31:30education 4.0. How we educate people in
31:33respond to that context to the IR 4.0.
31:38It's not about IT. It's not about the
31:41science. It's not only that.
31:43>> That's part of your of book writing in
31:462023?
31:49>> Uh
31:51uh
31:52It is not It's not the the that book.
31:55It's just a
31:57a research plan for me that I need I
31:59wrote I wrote for for master degree in
32:02Japan. Yes.
32:04>> Oh, you're getting a master in Japan
32:07now?
32:08>> No, not yet. I just applied. I'm in the
32:11processing of applying it now. I passed
32:13the second stage. It's mean that I I can
32:16pass
32:17Yes, and then I will uh
32:19it's Yes.
32:20>> Is it all in Japanese or English?
32:23>> Uh in in Japan in Japan.
32:25>> I know.
32:26>> Hiroshima University.
32:27>> Is it in English or Japanese?
32:30>> So, what happened is that he wrote this
32:33book with me
32:35uh 2020.
32:37And then he brought that book and then
32:39applied to Japan
32:41philosophy department and said I would
32:44like to further this study and they
32:46accepted him gave him full scholarship
32:49everything and then he got his second
32:51master in Japan is amazing story and now
32:55he is one of the top so in Cambodia when
32:58you become rich certain political system
33:00then you have to call him Excellency so
33:03he's now Sarath Excellency and
33:07then we still meet it's just wonderful
33:09story
33:10but anyways
33:12this will be the culture
33:15understanding the culture because the
33:17whole thing the nothingness became
33:18important because
33:21I start teaching them about creation I
33:23teach them about God you know
33:24metaphysics is the only philosophy that
33:27you could talk about God freely cuz
33:29we're metaphysical being
33:33and so all these students they basically
33:36say sir we have no problem
33:39with you talking about God the creator
33:42yeah God could create but you talk about
33:44ex nihilo talking about creation out of
33:47nothing
33:48but when we talk about nothingness zone
33:51zero
33:52zone always means something in our
33:54culture
33:55oh really and that's how we start
33:58talking about it wrote a book together
34:02interesting
34:03what about
34:04art
34:56>> [clears throat]
34:57>> Pause it. And you finish reading.
35:03Okay.
35:05What is your definition of art?
35:09On your culture. Uh
35:11every culture has different.
35:15What color
35:17represent your country? China is of
35:19course red.
35:20Cambodia is orange. That's why I put
35:22orange there.
35:23Uh
35:25Orange is the robe of the color of the
35:27robe of the monk in Cambodia.
35:29And it brings in shalom, peace, when
35:31they see the color.
35:33It's amazing.
35:35Do you know uh artist named Picasso?
35:38You know, I've been
35:40um
35:41studying him. Actually, he was born in
35:43Malaga, Spain. He's a Spanish.
35:46So, I actually went to Malaga to go to
35:48his museum.
35:50He worked at his uh since he died uh
35:55since 13 until he died at 91.
35:59From age 13 to 91, he had creative works
36:03for 78 years.
36:06I mean, he created some of the
36:07masterpieces.
36:09But, it says 50,000 works of art, but
36:12actually it's a lot more. Uh
36:17I mean, he just he he was a crazy man.
36:19He worked and worked and worked. Um
36:27Uh
36:27But, his thing was not about creating
36:30masterpiece. It was about creation.
36:33He was driven by creating new stuff.
36:37And uh
36:39he would his art always change the
36:42perception.
36:44He would go to the garbage collecting
36:47site
36:48and then he would pick stuff out from
36:49the garbage piles and turn into
36:52something else. Give meaning. His fit
36:55most famous work is
36:58Right?
36:592026 auction estimate price that starts
37:02from
37:0350 million.
37:08This Picasso's Bull has Bull's Head,
37:101942.
37:121942, he went into the
37:16garbage pile and found this
37:19completely destroyed bicycle.
37:22And he thought, "Huh." And he brought it
37:24home. Mounted on the wall.
37:27There you go. Picasso's Bull's Head. How
37:29many of you cannot do that?
37:31I could do that.
37:33But because he's the first one to do it,
37:36Picasso's Bull's Head now is worth 50
37:40million dollars. Or it starts from 50.
37:43You could, you know, some rich
37:45conglomerate could buy for 100 million
37:47if they want to. That's just kind of
37:48crazy.
37:49And that's what art is, right? It could
37:51really change someone.
37:54So this is my human head. Forget the
37:56Bull's Head. This is human head, so.
37:59I I'm going to make it, frame it, and
38:02then maybe charge um
38:04Okay, 10,000 dollars. I'll just charge
38:0610,000 dollars.
38:10>> [snorts]
38:10>> Wow.
38:11But the art in terms of movie
38:15could really really destroy.
38:19Right?
38:20Um
38:22You read it, right? What does it say? It
38:25said popular films, movies.
38:28Very powerful means.
38:32The Clockwork Orange.
38:35Massive. Early 70s, several violent
38:38crimes in the UK were reportedly
38:40committed by offenders claimed to have
38:42been inspired by this film.
38:45Wow.
38:47What about Natural Born Killer?
38:52Um
38:53Several real-life murderers cited film
38:55as influence.
38:58It's couple killing people. Oh, well,
39:01why don't we try that out?
39:03You always try to mimic what you see.
39:05That's why you need to behold the idol
39:07cuz you become like that idol.
39:09The Joker. Oh, that's serious issues,
39:12right?
39:15Uh psycho- psychologists have discussed
39:17how viewers vulnerable to alienation may
39:20strongly identify with the character.
39:23Either kill others or kill themselves.
39:27Indeed.
39:29The actually the actor killed himself.
39:33Fight Club. You know.
39:36Mhm.
39:38It's Oh, it's just entertainment. It's
39:40harmless. No, but
39:42escalated into criminal activities in
39:44the vandalism of
39:46many, many countries, many, many, many
39:49cities.
39:51Oh, one of my favorite movie. You know.
39:54>> [laughter]
39:56>> Unfortunately, the perpetrator of 1999
40:00Columbine High School Massacre were
40:02reportedly admired the film's imagery
40:05and style of killing.
40:07They made killing
40:10evil people fashionable.
40:12Remember?
40:14I mean, the scene where they are
40:15fighting the
40:17this
40:20And that's why I think what that they
40:22brought all this and then they start
40:24shooting.
40:25Matrix inspired them.
40:28So, the the point that I'm making is not
40:29Oh, therefore, let's uh ban Matrix. No.
40:32Point for our leaders to know
40:35that these things happen
40:37and understand, right? What about music?
40:41What is philosoph- philosophical
40:43understanding of what music is?
40:45This is Plato's Republic.
40:47He wrote 420
40:50BC.
40:51Before Christ. When the modes of music
40:54change, the fundamental laws of the
40:56state always change with them.
40:59So, what is saying? He is saying, "Well,
41:00if you want to change the state, if you
41:02want to change people, well, change what
41:04they listen to."
41:06Right?
41:07So, imagine, you know, the gangbangers
41:10in LA,
41:11they don't listen to Mozart.
41:13Oh, let's let's go kill somebody. Oh,
41:15let's turn on the Mozart. Well, you
41:17know, let's let's listen to Handel's
41:19Messiah.
41:21Hallelujah. Hallelujah. Hello. Okay, now
41:23let's go kill somebody.
41:25It doesn't happen. It's all rap about
41:28killing cops and,
41:29you know.
41:30So,
41:32should we
41:33then what what you just listen to hip
41:35hop?
41:36So, am I saying that that if the music
41:39itself is evil? No, it's like telling
41:41the drum is evil. So, you shouldn't play
41:43drum because, you know, evil people play
41:45drum and conjure up the evil spirit. No,
41:48you should play drum to conjure up the
41:49angels.
41:52But, point is this, the music shapes our
41:55souls and hearts.
41:57And it it forms our character and way of
42:00our thinking.
42:01So, the good character creates good
42:03citizen and citizen shape the culture
42:06and social value. So, culture shapes the
42:09laws and structure of the state. Change
42:11the music and you change the soul.
42:13Change souls and you change the state,
42:15right?
42:16What is the timeless takeaway then?
42:18Media is never neutral. It either builds
42:20up a society or breaks it down,
42:23right?
42:24So, music, and I'm using hip-hop, I'm
42:27using rap,
42:28to build up the character,
42:31right?
42:31So, the mode in which that we use the
42:34music is critical.
42:38So, then how does Christian hope protect
42:41the sacredness of life? Christianity
42:44does not deny suffering, but it insists
42:46that every human life belongs to God,
42:49and it is therefore sacred.
42:52Example,
42:53a church member struggling with severe
42:55depression confess suicidal thoughts to
42:57a pastor. Rather than responding with
43:00condemnation, "You just need more faith.
43:02You just need to pray more. You know how
43:04your suffering is nothing compared to
43:05so-and-so." Oh my gosh.
43:08Please, no condemnation.
43:10Or simplistic advice, "Just get over
43:12it."
43:13Instead, the church listens, stays
43:16present, encourages professional care,
43:19prays faithfully,
43:21walks with the person through recovery.
43:27That's what gospel is.
43:29God does not abandon the suffering,
43:31neither should the church. Christian
43:33hope is expressed through
43:35faithful presence. That's the keyword,
43:37faithful presence.
43:39Protecting life while pointing to Christ
43:41who entered suffering, overcame
43:44death.
43:48Get this. Studies suggest that people
43:50who die by suicide often communicate
43:53their suicidal intentions seriously,
43:56multiple times, typically at least three
43:59times before their death.
44:04Every conversation can be a lifeline.
44:06Listen, care, stay. You may
44:10You can make a difference. That's what
44:11stay is about.
44:13One more day, one more conversation.
44:16Well, how
44:17Well,
44:19this is a very short form of stay
44:21training. How do you become that person?
44:25Conduit of life.
44:27So, I've been working with
44:29Norwes Clinic Foundation
44:32and they uh
44:43provide a very
44:46short
44:48and they used to train
44:51and I got permission from them
44:53uh to translate into Korean and come I
44:56and
44:57but
45:00we're going to um
45:04just teach I'm not just going to go
45:05through very simple pre So, it's
45:08prevention is the power suicide
45:09prevention toolkit, right?
45:12Uh you're going to be trained.
45:20>> [snorts]
45:21>> What are the warning signs of suicide?
45:25Speech.
45:27Talk of feeling hopeless
45:29or burdened to others.
45:32Talk of feeling trapped or unbearable
45:34pain. Talk of leaving or having no
45:37reason to live.
45:39Right?
45:41A I think it's alcoholic anonymous. Uh
45:43you know, within the context it's like
45:46the issue is not now alcohol. It's like
45:50Man, I just I don't see any hope, right?
45:55So, be careful. You You listen to
45:58what they are saying.
46:00And if they start talking about
46:02I'm going to
46:04leave. I'm you know.
46:06So, one of the testimony that we have a
46:09counseling center in Cambodia.
46:11One of our chief counselor share
46:14that when she began 10 years ago as a
46:16counselor, she really didn't know what
46:18she was doing.
46:19But she start learning and learning and
46:22and because she didn't know any anything
46:23about how to prevent suicide one day one
46:27of her client
46:28as she was walking up from our clinic or
46:31our counseling center
46:33said
46:34sister
46:35I have appointment next Wednesday, but
46:38I don't think I'm going to make it.
46:40And signaling that she's going to end
46:42her life within the 7 days.
46:45And because Nimet didn't know what to do
46:48she just sincerely looked at her, smiled
46:52and said
46:53sister
46:55I would really really want to. I would
46:58be so happy to see you next week.
47:01That's how she
47:03She did not rebuke. She did not condemn.
47:05She did not freak out. She just said I'm
47:07I'm
47:08I'm
47:09I'll be so happy.
47:11I'll be so happy to see you next week.
47:15Next week she came.
47:16And squirmishly said, well, I'm here.
47:20And then oh, you know. And after the
47:22session she left the room saying you
47:25know next week I may not make it.
47:28>> [laughter]
47:29>> But that went on for a while.
47:31And she's now of course saved and you
47:34know living a normal life and
47:36so be careful and listen in on what they
47:40are saying.
47:41And their behavior change, increase of
47:44illicit substance, whether it be you
47:47know, abuse of medication
47:49taking a lot of a lot more sleeping
47:50pills or
47:52taking a lot more I mean there's nothing
47:54wrong with pill for depression, but it's
47:57like you start becoming dull, becoming
47:59acting weird, withdrawn from active It's
48:02like you're all by yourself. And I
48:04actually seen someone
48:05go through that. I mean, she was
48:08She was incredible lady at one point,
48:10and then she started withdrawing.
48:13Uh
48:13um
48:14She inherit so much money from parents.
48:18So, she doesn't ever have to work a
48:19single day in her life. She's still
48:21young, and she withdrew, and
48:23Oh my gosh.
48:25Okay.
48:25These are the stuff that you need to be
48:27careful. Isolation from friends and
48:29family,
48:30cutting off friends,
48:32excess [clears throat] sleep. This is
48:33just every time you call, they are
48:34sleeping. Right? Relinquishing prized
48:37possession, like giving away, "Oh, here
48:39is my jewelry." Like, "Why are you
48:40giving it to me? It's like $10,000."
48:43You know?
48:44Look Look for that. Okay?
48:47Uh
48:48because they are trapped.
48:50They're acting trapped. You need to open
48:52up the lid.
48:55And emotional changes, okay? Notable
48:58increase in anxiety, depression. Right?
49:01And when you see that, don't call it
49:03sickness. Right?
49:05Loss of interest in usual activities.
49:08Right?
49:11Hedonism is all about pleasure, but
49:14anti-hedonism
49:15is like anti- You don't want to do
49:17anything pleasurable.
49:19Increased guilt and shame. Right?
49:22Especially Asian context. Not so white
49:24people. White people are guilt
49:26conscious.
49:27Asians are shame cultures. That's why
49:28increase of guilt both and shame. So,
49:30we're both covering east and west. "Oh,
49:33I feel so guilty." Versus "I'm so
49:35ashamed." Right?
49:38What if What if you're mixed? If you're
49:40your dad is white guy, and mom's Asian.
49:43So, "Oh, I just shamefully guilty."
49:46>> [laughter]
49:47>> Maybe you feel shamefully guilty.
49:49Yeah.
49:50Or increased aggression,
49:52irritability.
49:54Just very aggressive.
49:56Anything is like, "Ah!" Blow up. Anger
49:59anger explosion.
50:01Why?
50:08Now, how then do you
50:11Mhm.
50:12support
50:14such friend?
50:15That's part of the training now.
50:19Talk to them in private setting. Don't
50:21insult them
50:23in public.
50:25You know.
50:26Don't make it into a
50:28the conversation with five people. No.
50:31Hey, can I talk to you?
50:32Take him to the different room or meet
50:34them separately.
50:36And ask,
50:38"How are you doing? Are you okay?"
50:40Right?
50:41I This said this over and over and over
50:44and over again. The reason I do stay
50:47is because
50:49if they
50:50Those people who kill themself, if they
50:52had someone listen to their story for 3
50:55hours.
50:57That's it.
50:59They will not kill themselves.
51:01So, listen to their thoughts and not
51:04just [clears throat] the and feeling.
51:05Don't talk.
51:07Right?
51:08The word listen,
51:10right?
51:12The same spelling
51:14means silent.
51:16Try to l i s t e n.
51:19s i l e n t silent.
51:22Right?
51:24Wow, that's I should actually teach that
51:27next time.
51:35Yeah.
51:39Three, reassure them that you are there
51:43to help. You care about them and how
51:45their feeling is valid.
51:48Okay?
51:50It's just like, "Oh, I'm so You just
51:52respond."
51:54Don't just sit there quietly, you know,
51:56poker face judging them. Just like with
51:59emotion, "Wow, my goodness. Is that
52:02You went through all that? Oh my Oh my."
52:05That kind of reaction. It's make it
52:07natural, of course, but don't be
52:08Hollywood like,
52:09>> [laughter]
52:10>> You know, don't be Hollywood, but really
52:12nodding,
52:14gently touching, "I'm so sorry."
52:17>> [sighs]
52:17>> "Wow. Wow, you went through that."
52:20Right? Make sure that their feeling is
52:23valid. It's not right and wrong. It's
52:26never right and wrong. You should not
52:27have felt that way.
52:29You know?
52:31You know, or defending, "Oh, you know,
52:32that guy is not that kind of a person."
52:34It's like, "What?"
52:36You know, I'm just telling what he did.
52:38Like, "Yeah, but, you know, he could not
52:40have said that cuz it's
52:42The guy that I know is a nice guy, so he
52:44could No, don't say that. Don't make
52:45judgment call. Don't try to correct.
52:48Just listen.
52:50And ask them in a direct manner if they
52:52are thinking about suicide. This is a
52:54critical thing.
52:56Man,
52:57man, are you
52:58Are you serious?
53:00You're not You're not thinking about
53:02ending it all, are you?
53:03Right?
53:05Hey, you know,
53:07uh
53:07I was reading a book to those who want
53:09to end it all. It
53:11sounds like you're very similar case,
53:13man. You're not thinking about
53:14committing suicide, are you?
53:17Be blunt.
53:18You have to be direct.
53:21And encourage them to seek treatment,
53:24offer to help connect with them a
53:26therapist, assist in any way you can.
53:28Don't be one-on-one.
53:30You then And if that guy commits
53:32suicide, then you feel be so depressed.
53:37Involve someone. What we call pyramid.
53:40You It's not one-on-one in like this.
53:43You bring their friends, you bring their
53:45teachers, you bring their pastors, so
53:47that and then direct it to God.
53:50So, it becomes a pyramid, right? You are
53:53not alone in this. Hey, can I share this
53:55with my pastor? Hey, you know what? I
53:58You really need Can I talk to your your
54:00brother or Can I include but gently
54:03encourage them to see You know what?
54:05There's a There's a church that really
54:08deals with inner healing. You know what?
54:10I know Pastor Jenny and she's a great
54:12inner healer and Hey, I know Pastor Roe
54:14and Can Can I
54:16you know
54:17in in involve others.
54:20Be careful and avoid discussing the
54:22value of their life. This could lead to
54:24further guilt. Try not to minimize their
54:27struggle.
54:28Right? What they're feeling is what
54:30they're feeling. At at certain age,
54:32that's only thing they could feel.
54:34Right? You're dealing with some young
54:36people. Their world is so framed.
54:40And then for you all, you know, I lived
54:41through that. Yeah, I I went through
54:43that. So, don't worry about it. You
54:44could get over it.
54:45You may be guilty later of that guy
54:49committing suicide. So, don't do that.
54:52Avoid discussing value of the Their
54:54value of life at that at that measure of
54:56one to Maybe you live long and so your
54:58understanding the global is the the unit
55:01of 2,700.
55:03Their world is about 270.
55:06So, don't say don't value that. Devalue
55:09that, right?
55:10Very important.
55:12This one through five six.
55:15Very simple. I said in this form. You
55:18could find it is in the website also.
55:20It's free.
55:22Just look up for that.
55:25Norwuz Clinic Foundation.
55:28Okay?
55:30It's called
55:32Norwuz
55:34Oh, they spelled it wrong, but
55:36Chat B.T. spelled it wrong, but it's No
55:38Roze.
55:39Uh
55:41healing action
55:46The spell didn't know it's n o r o o z n
55:50o o r
55:51Okay.
55:53So, if that's you, if you are thinking
55:56about
55:58you know, life is tough. I don't know
55:59what to do with.
56:01Then there are just simple five actions.
56:05Number one,
56:07take time to breathe deeply each
56:09morning. It's an easy way to reset and
56:12prepare for productive day.
56:15Um
56:16She's holding on to the bottom of her
56:18belly belly belly.
56:21Your um
56:24belly button
56:25right underneath
56:27right?
56:29You breathe in.
56:31But when you breathe in, what happens?
56:33Your stomach expands, but you do the
56:35opposite. When you breathe in with your
56:36nose
56:38but tighten that section. Okay?
56:43And hold it.
56:47>> [sighs]
56:53>> But you breathe in as much as you can as
56:55Okay, for example,
57:03>> [sighs]
57:05>> very comfortable sitting, lying down,
57:08doesn't matter.
57:09>> [snorts]
57:10>> It's the breathing technique um
57:13that Asian people use. Well, I I used I
57:16did a kendo. I did kumdo.
57:18I'm honorary black belt in kumdo, sword
57:21fight.
57:22Haedong Kumdo in Korea. Haedong Kumdo is
57:25more of artistic more of the
57:27philosophical
57:29It's not to kill or it's very very
57:32meditative and so Kendo
57:35in
57:35Kumdo in Korean
57:37I learned the technique to breathing and
57:39it's part of the actually healing
57:41process cuz
57:42you know if you're nervous you're
57:44anxious you you don't really breathe
57:45deeply so you don't have the whole body
57:49you you need breath right
57:52do that every morning every time you you
57:55are stressed or so I breathe in but
57:57tighten your stomach you know right
57:59below your belly button
58:02if you're sitting down for a long period
58:04of time like I'm doing right now
58:07at home always take a moment to get up
58:09stretch take a short walk these moments
58:11exercise jump-start a body during oh
58:14absolutely crucial
58:17uh
58:18and this is also the very very important
58:21make time for things you enjoy or care
58:24about help you find balance and keep
58:26your mind and body well-rounded a little
58:28self-care never hurts anyone
58:31do you do that
58:33uh
58:35once a week
58:36do you take break
58:40I'm
58:43it was my June
58:46this is my July and you see this thing
58:50right here
58:51that's Sabbath I do at least
58:55uh Sabbath and once a month
58:58a whole day a day of reflection
59:02so
59:03get in habit of
59:04doing something weekly
59:08that is pleasurable that it that release
59:10your tension
59:12right weekly you need to take Sabbath I
59:14mean God told you to take Sabbath
59:17right Jewish people do this really well
59:20Friday night they start cleaning on
59:22Saturday the complete Sabbath
59:25right
59:26learn to do that it will be so good for
59:28you. Oh, but I got to serve God and
59:30yeah, I serve God, too, but take the
59:33whole day off and do what
59:36Well, for for example, I call the
59:38Sabbath T W J D day. Do what Jenny
59:41wants.
59:42It's J or
59:44do
59:45date with Jenny day. T W J D. Date with
59:47Jenny day, my wife. And I ask her, "What
59:50do you want to do?" So, in the early in
59:51the morning, we wake up and we worship
59:53God and then worship God with my
59:55mother-in-law and we have this YouTube
59:57in Koreans and and then we go eat nice
1:00:01breakfast at a and then we go to Korean
1:00:04sauna and then just do things that uh
1:00:07helps make her happy, make you happy.
1:00:10She said, "Oh, let's go shopping." I
1:00:12hate shopping, but she loves shopping.
1:00:14So, then I go with her and and she goes
1:00:17her shopping and I in in the corner in a
1:00:19couch reading my book, you know.
1:00:22But, do something that doesn't feel like
1:00:24work.
1:00:28Or plan a you know, monthly trip or
1:00:32I do a personal retreat one day, full
1:00:35day
1:00:36once a month.
1:00:39I've been doing this for decades, not
1:00:41many years. I mean, decades, many 20, 30
1:00:44years. Once a month, one day, you take a
1:00:47retreat.
1:00:48And usually at the end of the month, I
1:00:51do it to review each month.
1:00:55All right. Review each month.
1:00:58And then I just bring my calendar and I
1:01:01say, "Lord, I give it unto you this
1:01:02month, 30 days, 31 days." I
1:01:05I I I was faithful. I try to be faithful
1:01:08as much as I know and just spend that
1:01:11time with God in prayer and
1:01:14and fight for it. They say, "Oh, I'm I'm
1:01:16raising kids. I don't have money." Oh,
1:01:18all excuses.
1:01:20Make it so.
1:01:21All right.
1:01:23Healing action number four, make
1:01:25playlist of all of your favorite songs.
1:01:29And help you to relax when you feel
1:01:30stressed, overwhelmed, listen. Right?
1:01:34Here.
1:01:35Right?
1:01:37Uh remember that you have worked so hard
1:01:39that you have accomplished so much.
1:01:41Where you are now is so different from
1:01:42where you were 5, 10, 15 years ago. You
1:01:45are capable of so much.
1:01:46You know that what devil does is
1:01:49and try to kill you and saying that oh
1:01:51you're nothing, you haven't done
1:01:52anything.
1:01:54See, it's out of personal testimony. I
1:01:56wrote my personal testimony here. I was
1:01:59at Oxford.
1:02:00One morning, a devil wakes me up
1:02:03and says jump, kill yourself.
1:02:06Cuz I was going through depression. I
1:02:07was having panic attack and stuff to
1:02:10some uh family issue
1:02:12and uh I couldn't help. I I didn't even
1:02:15sin, but
1:02:17um
1:02:18and I I couldn't I couldn't preach for 3
1:02:20years.
1:02:22Um
1:02:23and I was at Oxford, very depressing
1:02:25place.
1:02:26The sun sets at
1:02:284:00 p.m.
1:02:30Cold, miserable, raining. It's cold and
1:02:33not snowing. It's cold and raining. It's
1:02:35I didn't have car, so I have to
1:02:37take bus 45 minute back home from Oxford
1:02:40campus.
1:02:41And I was I was really depressed.
1:02:44One morning, some demon wakes me up and
1:02:47said jump.
1:02:49Die. It's not worth it. What have you
1:02:51done for the Lord?
1:02:53So I got my guitar out. I just start
1:02:55worshipping God all night.
1:02:59You know, and yeah, what have I done for
1:03:01the Lord? I look up 5, 6 years that I've
1:03:03been doing my PhD.
1:03:05Man, I've been to like 25 countries and
1:03:07I I
1:03:09>> [laughter]
1:03:09>> and I wrote like six books. I'm like,
1:03:11wait a minute. Who travels to the 25
1:03:13countries and write six books during
1:03:15that I did okay.
1:03:17I did a lot actually, more than average.
1:03:20So, why is demon telling me that I'm
1:03:22nobody? You've done nothing. Just go
1:03:24kill yourself.
1:03:25See?
1:03:26You got to have the proper perspective.
1:03:30And then, listen to good music. Well, I
1:03:32got my own channel.
1:03:33It's Spotify channel.
1:03:36Just if you own a Spotify,
1:03:38go there. Or if you if you're in Africa,
1:03:41I think it's Deezer or something. In
1:03:42Europe it's different. But my songs are
1:03:45at 150 platform.
1:03:48So, whatever country you're from, just
1:03:50look for Robert O channel.
1:03:52You'll find all these songs.
1:03:54Right? And I share a lot of these songs
1:03:56with you.
1:03:58This is one of my favorite. Not number
1:04:00one.
1:04:01You know, it's the world tells you you
1:04:03got to be number one, you got to
1:04:04compete, you got to compete, you got to
1:04:06compete. I say, you don't have to be
1:04:08number one. And so, let this song
1:04:10minister to you.
1:04:17>> [music]
1:04:23[music]
1:04:27>> I was running all my life
1:04:30>> [music]
1:04:31>> trying to shine brighter than [singing]
1:04:35the lights.
1:04:38Everybody said be number [singing]
1:04:40[music] one,
1:04:42but my soul was coming undone.
1:04:48Winning every rat race, [music]
1:04:51still hiding with a fake face.
1:04:54Then you were became a mirror
1:04:57and my despair became [music] clearer.
1:05:01Oh God,
1:05:03you humbled yourself for me,
1:05:07>> [music]
1:05:07>> left heaven's glory
1:05:11willingly.
1:05:13The became flesh
1:05:16and walked among us.
1:05:20King [music]
1:05:20became servant
1:05:23because of love.
1:05:24>> [music]
1:05:27>> So, let me humble myself
1:05:29and worship you alone.
1:05:32>> [music]
1:05:33>> I don't
1:05:33need the
1:05:34world's applause.
1:05:37I just [music]
1:05:38want to
1:05:40come [singing] home.
1:05:45>> [music]
1:05:46>> I was trying to be someone else,
1:05:49building kingdoms for myself,
1:05:52but you showed me who [music] I am,
1:05:56held safely in your hands. You raise the
1:05:59poor from the dust,
1:06:01>> [music]
1:06:02>> teach broken hearts to trust.
1:06:06Now, I lay my trophies [music] down at
1:06:09the
1:06:11foot of His cross.
1:06:14I don't need to be
1:06:15number one.
1:06:17I just want [music] to be
1:06:19Your son,
1:06:20the only one You made me
1:06:22to be,
1:06:23loving Your humility.
1:06:26>> [music]
1:06:29>> The word became flesh
1:06:32and died to save us.
1:06:34>> [music]
1:06:36>> God became man
1:06:38just to
1:06:41embrace us.
1:06:42>> [music]
1:06:42>> So, let me humble myself
1:06:45and worship you alone.
1:06:48Hallelujah
1:06:50forever.
1:06:53My heart [music] belongs
1:06:56to You.
1:07:01>> [music]
1:07:08[music]
1:07:15>> Wow, boxu.
1:07:17You see that sign it says number one.
1:07:21But still a rat.
1:07:24>> [laughter]
1:07:24>> If you become number one in the rat
1:07:27race, yeah, you're number one, but
1:07:29you're still a rat.
1:07:31You like that? I like the humor.
1:07:34Well,
1:07:35uh let's take 3-minute meditation and
1:07:38write
1:07:4015 minutes.
1:07:42Not 3 minutes, 15 minutes.
1:07:45So, 3-minute meditation, 15-minute
1:07:47writing on everything that you learned
1:07:51and then submit it.
1:07:53And
1:07:55that'll be your lecture number
1:07:58six.
1:08:01Lord bless you. Uh
1:08:02please be interactive. Please uh
1:08:05ask me a question and I I get so excited
1:08:08when I receive a good question.
1:08:11Right?
1:08:12The answer to wrong question is
1:08:13irrelevant.
1:08:15But answer to a great question will make
1:08:18a great great
1:08:20response and then everybody learn from
1:08:22that. So, please ask great question.
1:08:25See you next lecture.
1:08:28>> [music]